today was another hard day... i can't satnd the pain... john left... and now everything seems wrong... and now he loves another girl... why did i let this happen... how could i be so blind... i thought we would be perfect... but boy was i wrong... it hurts so much... to be let down so hard... nothing seems right... like i will never love again... can't get over it... i feel so weak... when i want to be strong... and everything seems wrong.