today was another hard day... i can't satnd the pain... john left... and now everything seems wrong... and now he loves another girl... why did i let this happen... how could i be so blind... i thought we would be perfect... but boy was i wrong... it hurts so much... to be let down so hard... nothing seems right... like i will never love again... can't get over it... i feel so weak... when i want to be strong... and everything seems wrong.

watch this

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FsGF98zQsaI

Broken Heart

When There Was Me And You - VANESSA ANNE HUDGENS

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too

yesterday the concert went great. we sounded really good. john had a solo for the jazz band, and he sounded great!!! tonight i have another concert. john has another drum solo. he is so good. sorry that my posts have been getting so short. i have just been so busy lately i haven't had much time for more. i will try to write more soon.

good day (again!!!)

another great day!!! tonight is the concert for chorus and jazz band, so i get to see john (again!). i am so happy... today was a great day.

My Favorite Inspirational Books

Girlosophy: A Breakup Survival Kit by Anthea Paul

GOOD day!!! :)

today actually wasn't a bad day. it was a very good one!!! that is because i got a boyfriend. his name is john. he plays lacrosse and the drums. he is really good. i think he is really cute. but the funny thing is we were baptized together, went to pre-school together, and our fathers work together. his birthday is june 20, mine is june 16. so i am four days older than him. our friend fakriyh set us up. i am so happy! :) i am happy to have a boyfriend. my last boyfriend broke up with me in august, and i FINALLY feel ready to have another boyfriend. so...we were texting each other for a long time! isn't it great how now i have another thing to talk about on my blog? tomorrow we are going up to the trailor. that means i will not be able to blog tomorrow, unless i blog before we go. i will try. i promise. so...anyways...i do not know what to say on here... i know! i am reading this book called girlosophy:survival guide to break-ups. (even though i just got a boyfriend, and i didn't break up with anyone!) i find it very helpful, anyway. it helps you to love yourself, eat healthy, and get on the track to a good and healthy lifestyle. it is a very good book, and i reccomend it to anyone and everyone, including boys or men. (although not ALL of the stuff will apply to them!!!) so, read it! well, ttyl. <3

Today's Inspiration

i have no inspiration!!! oh well. today was a bad-ish day. i don't feel like writing.

sorry!!!

sorry i haven't writtenin sooooooooooo long people!!! my computer crashed so i had to get a whole new one! our new one is MUCH better...well on sunday i ran 5 miles...good for me!!! thank you to everyone who answered my post on children. i appreciate it. that is all i have to say for now, but i will get back to everyone soon! :) love you guys!